~disguised blessings~

I have a gazzilion things going through my mind right now; so this one is going to be super duper mixed up!

I got multiple muscle ruptures in my left arm [I'm a lefty] 3 weeks ago....... the initial first week went by without much pain or suffering...... infact I took it happily as a surprise break from my daily schedule and decided to take a few days off work and just chill! Its the second week when things got a bit tricky and all the irritation, pains and inability to function normally actually started to bug me.... I mean what is one supposed to do in today's world if we can't even function properly? Most of us do not realize the efforts simple day-to-day activities take if you cannot use one of your arms. [try not using your working arm while brushing; bathing, dressing, eating for more than a week and then attempt to question me; otherwise don't even bother!]

Anyways; I got down to thinking once I was over my irritation and got accustomed to the pain..... about the simple things in life which I had taken for granted till now, my set of  god gifted skills that I'd been taking for granted [I'm talking about my doodling here], the annoying amount of time I sometimes spend  in front of the computer doing nothing[try doing it as a compulsion and you will know what I mean here], our friends and families[who stand by us in good as well as bad times], the value of free time[a 'lil free time never killed me; but only free time definitely did!], the value of my job to me[I still don't love it; but at least I don't hate it anymore] , my value to my employer(wink; wink)[yeah; I felt a bit unappreciated at work until now!], my body which functions normally(thank god for that!)[try to understand what I am trying to say here coz I can't put down in any other manner without sounding insensitive here] and other such stuff.......

All that I'm trying to say here is that there are A LOT of things in our lives which we take for granted without probably even realizing that we are...... All I'm saying is that there may be a lot of things which deserve our appreciation which we DO NOT appreciate....... I guess that all I'm trying to say here is that I am going to take this entire muscle rupture episode as a disguised blessing as it gave me surprise break, made me more grateful as a person and gave me time to reflect, get a vision for life, catch up on books/ movie/ music/ friends/ my two dogs!

a SIMPLE question

It all started with a harmless question at work- "what's your new year's resolution?" asked the boss....I was a bit taken aback considering I had not made / thought of new year's resolutions from the longest time! so I just said the first thing tht popped into my brains; I said that I'l work on my temper.... which was kinda true..... only I'v been  working on it for years now! [will come to that later some day; not now!] "D

So back coming to what happened later......for some reason [and thank god for that!] this question stuck to me and I started pondering over what I actually wanted to change in my life...and in turn started to ponder over my life in general and what I wanted from it....

Guess what!?!?!?! I thought and thought and THOUGHT. and thought. T.H.O.U.G.H.T......but I could not really come up with anything concrete. I had a LOT of small snippets of what I wanted to do at some point of time in life..... but I had no idea whatsoever as to how or what I wanted that "life" to be!

Looking back; I realize that my life had always been about achieving a lot of random short term goals put together. Its not that I did not have goals; I just had goals whose relevance I cannot be sure of now! My short term goals were not directed towards a larger goal; towards what I ultimately wanted out of my life. No wonder I felt so lost at all those times. No wonder a lot of things never really sense to me. No wonder that sense of achievement felt wrong at times; and no wonder those set backs were forgotten so easily!

Well; it may be a bit late to start now; but thank god; LATE IS BETTER THAN NEVER! "D

I'm taking some time off; I'm going sit and think. I'm going to work towards building a vision for my life!

I'M GOING TO DREAM. DREAM BIG. AND I AM GOING TO INCORPORATE THOSE DREAMS INTO MY VISION! "D

random blabber

i need to talk right now. about nothing in particular. to no one in particular. but i just need to talk. coz maybe i have nt really expressed myself in the longest time now. so i really need to TALK right now. so that the person i'm talking to actually LISTENS to me. i want to talk so that i can be heard. maybe i need to EXPRESS and not talk. or maybe i need to talk to express.  MAYBE.

P.S.
i'm quite surprised i need to talk. i mean i am a talk-a-holic. i talk every day! just got off the phone before writing this!  :P

~just nostalgia~

I have been having this weird itch to write abt my internship for quite sometime now... so here goes- some of the reasons why i'v been missing my internship a lot; A LOT these days!

01. i met amazing ppl / made wonderful friends!

02. we did equal amount of work and masti!

03. we bitched, we cribbed, we hated but WE WORKED!

04. we ate.

05. we ate A LOT.

06. fights over food.

07. fights over iced tea.

08. fights over pincha's mom's cakes! *yumm yumm! drool*

09. taking orders for M.O.D. doughnuts. at least once a week!

10. convincing ppl to eat a 'lil more/less so that i could order a box of doughnuts! :D

11. Mc Donalds burgers and iced tea. ooh and the choco swirly thing as well!

12. going to Spice mall for lunch! ;p

13. eating greasy; unhealthy food from one of the places in the mall's food court.

14. going to spice mall to "freshen up!" [hahahaha!]

15. costa coffee focaccia's

16. costa coffee coffee

17. south indian food for lunch

18. dal chawal/ kadhi chawal/ rajma chawal from the place i used to call "aaoji khaoji".

19. THE ULGY TRUTH! :D

20. lame excuses

21. arguments over whose work the intern / dyer / p.m. will do first!

22. the rare days when GG was in a fun mood!

23. GG! :D

24. SG!

25. killing time in atta market

26. sourcing trips

27. cribbing over the A/C which never worked

28. cribbing over the washroom basin which leaked!

29. cursing the water shortages

30. office fires! [scary bt still memorable!]

31. making tags

32. attending to clients

33. chunnilal ji

34. running to the finishing department every 10 mins

35. managing to still work and finish it!

there are a lot of things which i'v missed i'm sure! plz feel free to add them! :D

love you guys!

miss working with you all!

D-U-H..... C-H-A-N-G-E

I always thought that I was a head strong person...with strong convictions....well always until some time now.....now its reached a point where I'm questioning every thing I am and everything I think I am.


It's really funny.... the concept of letting go and becoming...letting go of the person you are....... or rather I should be saying - letting go of SOME of those bits which make us who we are, define us in whatever small / big way....and develop some new bits which would define the future us!

It's change - a change in our perspective / attitude / behavior / appearance / conscience / options / priorities  - whether for the good or for the bad [although I think that any type of change does us good only in the end!].....a change very minuscule or a huge, major one; a change CHANGES OUR LIVES FOREVER...

A new decision brings about a change. Taking decisions is neither fun nor easy, its just simply an important part of our lives and cannot be excluded / forgotten / procrastinated for long.Well I'm not even saying that it's a pleasant thing to do... taking these decisions.....but I also believe that there comes a time in our lives when that question which has been troubling us gets answered on its own..... Your instincts guide you towards what is actually right..... and everything just seems right all on its own!

It's not that I don't like being here....It's a wonderful place to be in..... to become open to question who we really are..... but it's  just that I feel utterly and completely lost without my own set of unquestioned convictions!

TILL I FIND THEM AGAIN! "D

Is life a doodle?

I'v been sitting and  thinking a lot about life; its meaning; the great journey that is!

I dunno how god could add SO many tiny details in all our lives.....I would like to believe that god sat down and painstakingly planned out my life in great detail; I do believe so to at most times...

hmmmm..... so this one is just a randomly random thought which crossed my mind....... but it feels SO true! So;

DID GOD DOODLE LIFE WHEN SHE / HE WAS HAVING A MOOD SWING?

I mean seriously....... life is such a mix of ups and downs; joys and sorrows......
It's SO unpredictable... It seems to going on one path at one moment only to change course and follow a completely different opposite one the next moment..... just like a doodle!

Making the most of life!

I was thinking about life.... decided to look up what others had to say about life...came across this article on the net talking about how to make the most of out lives and all that stuff.... I read it, felt it, felt about it..... but this is what actually stayed behind with me; what touched me the most. Simple thought, yet so true!


"In order for your life to expand, your mind needs to expand. Just like with physical exercise, when you exhort force on your muscles, they grow. It's the same with your mind; when you think or try new things, your mind expands. And an expanded mind is an enriched mind. You become enriched, and so does your life."

 ~ Anders Moller ~